On the unfairness of life

This would be too immodest of me to say, but I have never ever been irresponsible when working with a group. I always try to be dependable. I hate letting people down. So, as much as possible, I do my best, delivering what is required of me. Of course, it took a toll on my health; too much work aggravated my hypertension. I thought I can relax a little and collect what I owed from Fate, this should-be last undergraduate semester of my life.

But nothing’s fair in life.

It’s too painful to think that I may not be graduating this semester because of one failed subject. I’m not overly-grade-conscious, but I do value my reputation. Despite the many difficult courses I have taken, the only academic subject I failed was CS 11. I’m not a bright student, but I take my studies seriously. I have always demonstrated the resiliency and diligence expected of me, though, personally, it was far below the level of most of my former classmates.

There’s a limit to how much I can blame my misfortune on others; ultimately, the fault is mine. I should have not let others handle such an important project. I should have taken up the leadership position from the start and not sit around, expecting someone else would. Some people are yet to learn that their actions or inaction go beyond their lives. Not all UP students know what the words “honor” and “excellence” mean in their personal and social lives. It’s not too late to learn (and this may well be the most important lesson for you). I should have been wiser.

Periculum in mora.

* I was being too OA here. There’s still a slim chance of passing the subject in question, that is, if I ace the final exam. 

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More on the unfairness of life… I got a 1.00 from my favorite prof! (Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t use unethical means to get this grade).

Honestly, I wasn’t expecting anything lower than that.